I'm half way through a month long workout group I joined. Everything happens at home but the online group is there for support and motivation, which is something I need. Knowing I need to report my weight and measurements to other people after a month holds me accountable. I've been making better eating choices and I'm really starting to feel some changes in my body. A little definition here and there. They (yes, the all-powerful THEY) say it takes 4 weeks for you to notice a change, 8 weeks for your family/friends, and 12 weeks for the world. My entire program is 20 weeks. I can not quit. I love the new energy and sense of accomplishment I'm feeling. Now I want to love how I look in short-shorts and bikinis! May sound shallow but it's what I want and I'm the only one who can make it happen.
Not much more to report about me. The nursing programs are full for Fall so I can't start until the Spring. I was heart broken. The plan for nursing school was set in motion before Leukemia took over. Taking care of Spencer was priority #1. My plans had to be shuffled around so there were setbacks. But Todd is very supportive and didn't see it as a big deal. It's a few more months. I'm going to take a class or 2 over the summer to boost my GPA and get me ahead. I just can't wait to get in those scrubs. I feel like I have so much to prove. Like there are still people expecting me to fail or quit. It just motivates me more. I'm no longer letting anyone's negative energy pull me down. I'm using it as fuel. I have no space in my life or hours in my speeding-by days for people who suck. Awesomeness only.
Speaking of awesomeness...
My little dudes aren't so little anymore (crying on the inside). Spencer is making some great strides. Now is a very exciting time for him. He FINALLY took his first unassisted steps!! He has been walking more and more with the assistance of a gait trainer they provided for him at school. He is going to be off and running in no time. He has added a few more words to his vocabulary and is definitely understanding everything that's going on around him. His receptive speech is fantastic and I know he will be talking our ears off soon enough. At school they said that when kids focus on one skill like walking other skills like talking fall by the wayside until they accomplish what they've set out to do. This is true for all kids.
In the next few weeks we will start meeting with people from the Brunswick school district, along with people from his current school. They will do a series of evaluations to see if he is ready to move to a preschool within the school district. He could stay at his current school but in the long run, he's going to be in the city schools. I want him to be with everyone he's going to grow up with. I'm nervous about him leaving his nice supportive bubble, but it's still preschool where everyone wants to play together and be friends. I need to stop worrying about things that are not happening right now. He's not getting picked on and he's not getting laughed at and he's not struggling. And if we're lucky those things will never happen because he's a great kid. I just still can't help but feeling like he got shafted. He's so so sweet and awesome and I hate to see him struggling but he doesn't even realize that he is. He just enjoys his life. He's happy so I'm happy.
And what do I say about Hurricane Sullivan?? That kid blows my mind on a daily basis. He's running, climbing, jumping, diving, doing everything possible to terrify me! Definitely still my adventure baby. And he is so smart. He's been saying hundreds of words and short sentences for awhile now, he can count to five, can associate tons of animals with their sounds (including the fox which apparently says DING DING), can sing parts of songs, follow tons of commands, problem solve on his own, and just a plethora of cool things. But he definitely uses that big brain of his to be very sneaky. But I love my sneaky little redhead. My red pepper. He is so cuddly and snuggly and sweet and he gives the best hugs! I love getting to know him more and more every day. He is great motivation for Spencer. They're just the best of friends. It looks like good weather is right around the corner so I know we're going to have an awesome summer together because these kids are in exploration mode. So curious. So awesome.
So it looks like things in my life are still kids, school, self, and I'm okay with that. Like I said, spring and summer are right around the corner and there are so many cool things we plan on doing as a family. I want my kids to grow up having cool memories of their childhood like I do. Even simple stupid things like coloring Easter eggs together. But outside of mom-mode, I do have some cool events coming up that I am personally excited about. It's cool to have things to look forward to. It's cool to not necessarily feel like your head is going to fall off all the time. Life is good. Even when it's not, it is, if that makes any sense at all.
COOL was the overused word today!
13 days until my weigh-in.
40 days until Lady Gaga.
74 days until my godchild's high school graduation & Jen's wedding.
93 days until my weight loss goal deadline.
100 days until Mexico! Olé!!!
117 days until Road Rash Bash.