Wednesday, February 5, 2014

It's Been A Long Time Since I Rock-n-Rolled: Welcome To 2014

Let's get right down to it. I just suck as a blogger anymore but maybe that's a good thing. This use to be an outlet to relieve stress or dispel extra energy, a place to spazz out whether things were good or bad. Maybe I've just reached some sort of level ground. I'm by no means stress-free. I've got a toddler who is in remission from Leukemia and has developmental delays (though he's kicking major ass because, well, he's awesome), I've got a baby who is a fireball/bulldozer/cuddly tornado and is always doing something little ham, a full-time student's workload, and a plethora of other things going on. There's stress coming out of every orifice...but it's not keeping me up at night. It's not pop-your-top stress. I know how to manage it. I've become a pro-multitasker and organizer. It's just life. It got busy.

And I'm definitely not saying I'm giving up on the blog game. It's part of who I am. It's just not the first thing I want to do every day, you know? Not a major priority. And it probably isn't what people want to read anymore, to tell you the truth. Lengthy, adjective-riddled stories about tortured romance, impending self-destruction, and youthful shenanigans are a thing of the past. But I don't care. I've never written for anyone but myself anyway. Although, ugh, some of the things I look back on and read...posterity isn't always everything it's cracked up to be! But I'm sure everyone rolls their eyes at themselves and their pasts. And if they don't, I'm sure they should. And I'm the authority on this, HA.

So here we go. How has 2014 been so far?

I rang in the new year with my boys, and I'm not talking about Spence, Sully, or Todd. We had all been knocked out by some sort of bug for what seemed like an eternity and Todd was taking care of the youngins after working long days as I recovered. The boys I'm talking about are Jax, Chibs, Juice, and Tig. Ah, Sons Of Anarchy, how I love you. When most of your time is spent mothering, taking care of the castle, and expanding your brain, keeping the gears turning, you don't get a lot of alone time to just BE. So at midnight, I just WAS while watching havoc be wrecked on Charming, California. And after one of my favorite family meals of the year, I saw some of my favorite people (SCHULIENS) and had my first adult bevy of the year: a Holiday Cookie Stout at Fathead's with friends. Perfect. That's how I plan to spend my year. Having good times with the people I love. Or at least those who also want to have a good time, too.

Spence kicked the year off on a good note. Everything regarding his health is going in the right direction which is a major relief. Actually, I don't feel as freaked out about a recurrence as I thought I would. Kind of shocking. I thought I'd be losing my shit over every bruise and sluggish day or long nap but instead, I've just enjoyed watching him sprout. He's come so far. Anyway, he was chosen by the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society to be one of 2014's Honored Heroes. His story will appear in some of their fundraising efforts and I'll quickly tell his story as the walk this year. It'll be perfect timing as the walk will fall right around his one year anniversary of remission. It's all pretty exciting. He's definitely my hero. And so many people helped us, it's time to start giving back.

After missing a semester, in the paraphrased words of Grease 2, I went back, back, back to school again a month ago. I'm really digging my Organic Chemistry class, as of now anyway. These are my last classes before officially being in a Nursing program. I got a report recently saying that all my requirements will be met at the beginning of May, short of fingerprints and a background check. It's really exciting and of course, terrifying. I've had a lot of big ideas over the years that never came to fruition. This one is actually happening. Something I want to do will be done from start to finish. By the end of next year, I will be a nurse. Yes, it will put my family in a much better place financially, but I truly think it will be another way for me to give back. I can help people and support them. I can do something meaningful. Something that actually matters. Maybe I'll help save your life one day. And besides, wearing scrubs is the closest I can come to working in my pajamas. It was nurse or ninja and I don't think the market for ninjas is really booming. Not in Brunswick, OH anyway.

Last week, we hit the 1 year anniversary of Spencer's diagnosis. It was a bittersweet day. And there will be a lot of painful anniversaries in the next few weeks but I just need to remember that we all survived it. Everyone's heads are still screwed on.  It's still really hard not to think of how awful it was. It felt like it went on for an eternity but really it flew by. It's been a year. 1 year ago today, Phoebe and I went downtown and had all my questions answered about Spencer's treatment. I was in preparation mode. Sometimes I feel like I'm still on the outside of my life looking in. Those odd moments are getting fewer and farther between these days. But last year was a terrible year.

And a terrible birthday. Our whole world was crumbling down around us last year. But I'm making up for it. I've only got a few days left before turning 35. I don't mind it. I'm glad not to in my 20s anymore. That whole time period of my life was just a tornado. Anyway, I'm leaving last year behind and starting over...with karaoke!! A bunch of friends are getting together at Yorktown Lanes (who were nice enough to have karaoke on a Saturday because they're AWESOME) to rock out (and eat bowling alley food which is arguably the best cuisine). Like I said, I want to be around good people who want to have a good time this year. I have high hopes for 35. High, high hopes.

 I'll try and make some time to post some pictures here this week. I know it's been awhile. And with that...bye for now.

1 comment:

  1. Anytime once can reference Back to School in a blog.. well they are a winner in my book. One day we will go to a bowling alley and reenact Score Tonight. I swear it.